For the past few weeks I have been having an inner battle with what to do with this blog. Back and worth, keep it or delete it…. well now its time to decide. But first, let me weight both sides…
Keep: I have always been good at sharing whats on my mind and those of you who know me will probably agree. So many times I felt better sharing what was on my mind. It was so awesome to have this as an outlet during my pregnancy and a way to share my progress with friends and family on a regular basis. I really enjoy going back and reading past posts. I love the idea of having my experiences as a new mother well documented and a big part of me says “shame on you for considering stopping!”. I’m afraid I will wish I kept going. Pickle is growing up so fast and my daily time with him is limited. I would be so happy to keep it going and a year from now look back on he little things I wrote about him when he was 5 months old. Its like my ’1 Line A Day’ journal I keep. I’m on the 3rd year and I LOVE reading what happened the past 2 years on that same day. Craigery and I both enjoy that. And, lastly, this is my therapy…
Delete: Sharing whats on my mind is good, but I sometimes have a problem separating my personal frustrations with what this blog is supposed to be about. I like the idea of sharing my journey with family and friends, but honestly many of them are not interested. They want me to CALL. They don’t care to be tech savvy and don’t know the first thing about even following a blog. (I think I might get some flack from that statement). And maybe more of them than I know follow, but they sure don’t say anything about it or they may mention a post months after I have written it. But who am I doing this for? Them? Me? A little of both I guess. What about Pickle? There are times when I think ‘why are you going to spend time at the computer blogging about his life, just live it!’ It makes me cry to think this. The time it takes is hard to set aside. I like to think it doesn’t take long or that I can do it when he is napping or after he goes to bed… but I just don’t know. I seem to have other things I would rather do than post all the time or I would’ve written that birth story I promised
In a nut shell, I want to. Badly. But does anyone really care/follow? Do I want to make the time? I know what Craigery would say: Delete it. If I did, then I feel like its another connection to my baby that I have severed.
I have a problem with wanting it all… and I need a solution
There is a poll about what I should do. Cast your votes, people.