For the past few weeks I have been having an inner battle with what to do with this blog. Back and worth, keep it or delete it…. well now its time to decide. But first, let me weight both sides…
Keep: I have always been good at sharing whats on my mind and those of you who know me will probably agree. So many times I felt better sharing what was on my mind. It was so awesome to have this as an outlet during my pregnancy and a way to share my progress with friends and family on a regular basis. I really enjoy going back and reading past posts. I love the idea of having my experiences as a new mother well documented and a big part of me says “shame on you for considering stopping!”. I’m afraid I will wish I kept going. Pickle is growing up so fast and my daily time with him is limited. I would be so happy to keep it going and a year from now look back on he little things I wrote about him when he was 5 months old. Its like my ’1 Line A Day’ journal I keep. I’m on the 3rd year and I LOVE reading what happened the past 2 years on that same day. Craigery and I both enjoy that. And, lastly, this is my therapy…
Delete: Sharing whats on my mind is good, but I sometimes have a problem separating my personal frustrations with what this blog is supposed to be about. I like the idea of sharing my journey with family and friends, but honestly many of them are not interested. They want me to CALL. They don’t care to be tech savvy and don’t know the first thing about even following a blog. (I think I might get some flack from that statement). And maybe more of them than I know follow, but they sure don’t say anything about it or they may mention a post months after I have written it. But who am I doing this for? Them? Me? A little of both I guess. What about Pickle? There are times when I think ‘why are you going to spend time at the computer blogging about his life, just live it!’ It makes me cry to think this. The time it takes is hard to set aside. I like to think it doesn’t take long or that I can do it when he is napping or after he goes to bed… but I just don’t know. I seem to have other things I would rather do than post all the time or I would’ve written that birth story I promised
In a nut shell, I want to. Badly. But does anyone really care/follow? Do I want to make the time? I know what Craigery would say: Delete it. If I did, then I feel like its another connection to my baby that I have severed.
I have a problem with wanting it all… and I need a solution
There is a poll about what I should do. Cast your votes, people.
Monday I went with the girls from the breastfeeding support group to the mommy me showing of Twilight! It was so fun! I really enjoyed seeing all the moms babies there! And there was hardly any crying! Pickle did excellent. I bfed there, he watched some, and slept the rest! Wish I could go more.
Wednesday was my last bf support group at UCLA. Ive met some awesome moms and have learned an incredible amount. Pictured is my Lactation Consultant, Christy. She has been so much more than breastfeeding support to me, and the other girls. I appreciate her so much. Now Vee will be going every week. I’m happy for her, but also a little sad envious.
Of course, thanksgiving was this week. I made food on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. My sister helped as did Kathy, my step mom. We made my grandmas recipes. It makes us feel close to her .
Friday morning, my sis I went out black Friday shopping after Levis night feeding. We stopped at Starbucks, best buy, Carters. We got some excellent deals and it wasn’t very crowded. My fluffy mail came too! Contained 4 bumgenius diapers in the new sassy mirror colors! My 2 free diapers were Kawaii Baby in orange and an adorable safari print! Loving them! Better than my Happy Heiny ones so far. On Friday, Levi got to meet his great aunt finally, and got some time in the bumbo. Not fully ready for it though.
On Sunday I got all his things ready for daycare. Ill make that a separate post later. All in all, it was an emotion filled week.
Monday started off with a bang! Pickle turned 3 months old! He weighs in at 15 lbs and fits 3-6 month clothes quite well. I had my apt with the endocrinologist for my PCOS. Blood work all looked good and doc doesnt want to see me for 6 months! Also, perhaps more notably…. Vee went into labor! After being 10 days overdue we were all ready for baby boy to arrive. On Tuesday morning, baby Connor was born! Momma and baby are doing great! These pics are from our visit to the hospital. A big congrats to them!
I also broke out the tummy time activity gym for the first time! It was a suggestion by @ekwetzel and I thank her! Not sure why I didnt realize that now Levi was probably advanced enough to really enjoy it. Im happy to say we got some successful tummy time full of smiles! Thank you crinkly cabbage that is also a mirror!
Friday was our practice day at the daycare. I was really looking forward to this calming my overwhelming emotion about returning to work on Nov. 28th. It did help a lot. Pickle did well there! Craigery came with, we met Miss Jennifer who will be Levis primary caregiver. She is a very sweet girl and was great with him. I stayed and nursed him, played with him, asked my questions. Pictured is my check list of things I need to bring for them to keep there.
As holiday season is approaching, my crafts are growing. Im working hard to minimize my stash of fabric and yarn. I have about 20 bibs cut and ready to sew for my etsy shop. I also have a couple of hats to crochet before Xmas. Better get busy!
Ps. I know what your thinking: wheres the birth story? -Im working on it